Well, it has been quite some time since I have posted and I now see that not writing has been A TERRIBLE MISTAKE. I am not sure what the fuck I was thinking when I thought I was "better," but I was completely wrong. It is like someone who has BPD going off their meds, or the child with ADHD taking a pill break during the summer. IT IS HELL.
So much has happened (or not happened) that I don't even know where to start, so I will just say that I am finding myself in a very familiar state of mind, much like the one I was in TWO FUCKING YEARS AGO. However, I have learned from my mistake and will work very hard to make amends. I will try to post instead of looking to social networks for escape. I will post if I feel the only answer is getting drunk all day long. I will post if my children are making me so insane I think I would rather give my a paper cut. When i am not posting, I will think about posting. When I am asleep, I will dream about posting. In between, I will try to get well and search for medical answers. Everything else will be about blog posts.
That was short and sweet and really, not all that hard. So, hopefully I will see you soon. You meaning the large, empty space that is the internet!!! Ciao.
Well I for one have missed you sunshine
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